I stay losing followers. Like one a day. I never had many, but still. It sucks a little.

I don’t care. I don’t need you guys. /sniffle.

I may not be what many of you may view as “serious” or you might think I’m just an annoying teenage girl, but I’m not trying to lose weight for cosmetic reasons. I need to lose weight. I need muscle in my core because I am a SINGER. We need support.

Again, I might not be a doctor and I might be immature and I don’t have any idea what I’m doing trying to lose weight but you better fucking believe I’m trying JUST as hard as anyone else, if not harder.

I just don’t want to be seen as someone who wants to look good for a boy, or her friends, or anything like that; those things are extra and, while I’m excited for them, that’s not what’s important to me. I want to be healthy. Just like you.

I love moving!

I already feel better about myself than I did earlier. I walk/jogged for around an hour in my new Shape Up shoes, and then did some stretching/standing crunches. My back feels fan-fucking-tastic and my calves hurt really good.

I need to remember this feeling! I love exercise. It is NOT a punishment, it is a reward. (:

Sick.

Don’t give a shit.

Need to move.

Also, I have one more reason I want to be healthy.

I will play Christine Daae one day. I will.

I’m pathetic.

That’s the only thought going through my mind right now and Iknowhow bad that is for my mind but I just feel so awful. Being constantly sick is seriously no excuse.

I swear I’m back. It’ spring break and I’m not giving up on myself now. I’m still doing this. I will not continue to be so unhealthy. I willnotbe so sad. I willstoptreating my mind and my body like trash.

I just need motivation. Someone yell at me. Someone help me stay strong andkeep going.

I have a sinus infection

and I was doing situps and if hurt my face.

It was awkward.

That is all.

You probably won’t want to read this

because it’s just a rant about show choir. Lulz. No one cares.

But I find it HI-fucking-LARIOUS that every show choir and their momma is doing karate after Rhapsody did it last year. Lol. Even Fairfield had the robes and blackbelts and stuff.

I guess you could say that I’m excited for the third. OH YEAH.